New and Scary #4-Perspective

I haven’t had any time to write lately as school has kept me very busy. I am home today on a snow day, (southeastern CT got 2-3 feet of the white stuff dumped on us and it continues to snow as I write), so I thought I would sit for a spell and share my heart.

We (my favorite guy and I) have been in the midst of some transitions in our lives and to say that these have not gone according to “our” plan would be an understatement. The problem with this line of thinking is that it isn’t “our” plan, it is His, and frankly speaking He knew all along what was going to occur long before it happened. I share this with you now because at some point I am actually going to clue in before the event and make adjustments or at least be better prepared for the outcome. But for this moment and this situation I am now clued in…or at least for this snapshot in time. And this is what I hear…

We look at situations in the natural…with our natural eyes. What we need to be doing is looking at the situation from God’s perspective. When we get a glimpse of how He sees the it—whoa, watch out—it probably doesn’t look at all like what we thought. We are so self absorbed and focused on what “we” need but His word tells us that He will take care of us, meeting our every need with abundant provision. Why do you think He does this…provide for all our needs that is? Because if all our needs are taken care of we can be about the business of the kingdom. What is that you ask? Saving souls, of course. Our most important task is to show others who Jesus is. Doing what Jesus did. Bringing heaven to earth.

So ask yourself, how are you doing today with this mandate? I know I received a Holy chiropractic adjustment when I laid down.

20150127_122159

The Weekend is Here

It snowed here in Connecticut yesterday. Not a lot but enough to make the morning commute miserable for many. I was thankful to get to work just as the snow began to fall. I have recently decided that one of the challenges with living here is that it gets cold in the winter but often times there is not much snow(last year excluded). If it is going to be cold I would prefer the world be covered with the white stuff. Plus I just love the quietness that falls over the world when the snow falls. I can almost hear the hush now.

At the end of my work day I went to the farm to pick up this weeks share. It was so picturesque I stopped to snap a couple of photo’s with my phone. You practically need to shield your eyes the sun is shining so brighter.

Have a great weekend!

Setting Sun over the hill and field.

Setting Sun over the hill and field.

 

The Last Day 2014

It was not my intention when I sat down to spend some quiet time with God this morning to take a year-end inventory however, if I have learned anything in the years I have walked with the Lord it is that it is not really about me and what I want but what He has for me.

My pastor has made the comment to take the lesson and leave the luggage. In order to do this we need time to reflect. I believe that God is constantly talking to us. There are always lessons, miracles, wisdom to be gleaned from life experiences however we need to take the time to examine life as it occurs not simply let it pass by. I have tried to be more consistent with this in 2014. I still have much opportunity to improve but so what?!

So as sat this morning quietly reading and sipping my coffee I asked myself what have been the most important lessons learned this year? How have I grown? Where do I need to focus as January rounds the corner because where my focus is will get my attention.

Lessons learned(in no particular order):

Trust God. He has a plan. That plan is better than mine. He will provide the plan when I am ready.

This may seem like a no brainer but all too often I still go about my life doing what I want and hoping it is what God wants too. You can read a past post here is you would like to see how I learned this lesson. The part about the plan is revelatory(for me). I know that things always happen in His perfect time yet this morning He whispered that the plan is revealed when I am ready. Hmm…a partnership, co-laborer in His kingdom?!

Write things down. I remember better when it has been written. Things that happen during the day are important. People and interactions matter, so make notes.

Keep a journal. This is a place to record your thoughts and elaborate on feelings. One of my favorite quotes is “thoughts are disentangled as they pass through our fingerstips”~ Dawson Trotman.

I have taken to writing the names of each patient I interact with during the day. It helps me to remember who they are but more importantly I use it as a prayer reminder lifting each one up throughout the day.

Only this moment is guaranteed, the next is not. Live life with purpose. Be intentional in everything. Set goals. Take risks. Give Glory to God. Say things that are important. Be sure to give time to what is important to me—this should be people(note to self). Love everyone. Always. But especially when you don’t feel like it.

Enough said.

Happy New Year Everyone! Praying that 2015 brings you love, joy and peace.

~ Paige

 

Sitting is the new smoking

If you have been reading my blog for any length of time you know that I am a nurse. In the nearly 30 years since I first began my career, nursing has changed ALOT. For the first decade or so I worked in the busy emergency department. We didn’t even have enough chairs for staff to sit in but frankly it didn’t matter because most of the time you were too busy to sit. One newly built department wasn’t even designed with a break room for staff–it was definitely a flaw but it spoke to how little sitting was done.

Today I am a different kind of busy. Yes there are days when I may walk back and forth to the hospital one, two sometimes even three times in a single day most of my time is spent on the phone, in front of a computer SITTING. Now let’s add in the hour plus commute each way and my classtime and time I spend blogging and a clear problem is revealed; I must have roots growing out of my backside.

In all seriousness this is really a problem. And I know I am not alone. For a while I was using a stability ball in my office but it got a hole in it, I do hope to buy a new one for my birthday though. I also try to stand at my desk but it is very difficult to type for any length of time because my body is contorted. I asked about the possibility of getting a treadmill desk, mostly because I was interested to hear the reply since I knew it wasn’t in the budget(most can’t even get headsets, I have one and am most thankful). I try to take the stairs when I am out and about and was even doing a stair challenge with some of my co-workers for a few weeks but somehow that has ceased. I do try to go outside for a walk during the day and need to be more faithful to that commitment. At home sometimes I will stand when I eat, I often do this if we go out for dinner and we are at the bar. But overall I find it hard to spend more time standing and less sitting. And according to everyone this is a major problem for us humans.

What are your habits? Do you sit too much or have you found ways to add more standing time into your day? I would really like to hear your ideas. I did include a few articles on the topic, all of which as pretty interesting.

Sitting is killing you

Sitting is the smoking of our generation

Ways sedentary life is killing you

Come Back

Blogging is sharing, developing and stretching ourselves through the shaping of our ideas. Blogging is about the community we become a part of by allowing our lives to become entwined with another. Blogging sharpens our ideas and perhaps gives us new ones. Blogging makes us laugh and sometimes leaves a tear. Blogging is real.

So what happens when one day you wake up and wonder, “why did I stop blogging?”.

Yes, life is busy and at my blogging peak I would spend considerable time in front of the computer reading and writing…often the problem in life is the inability to put down boundaries yet when we pick up a new hobby something in life’s schedule must change or we won’t have the time and ability to develop whatever new thing has caught our eye. I liked writing and I enjoyed reading my fellow blogger’s posts. Recently I had a comment from a fellow blogger just saying hi—even though I had not sat in this chair in over a year someone I “met” in blogosphere reached out and touched me, I find this truly remarkable.

So why not come back?

I am going to make a promise to myself to sit in this chair once to twice a week and write. Share my world with others and let your world influence mine.

~Paige

Gingerbread Gem

Lessons in the life of a Nurse

585

I met Karol a few weeks ago. She had been admitted for some medical complications secondary to her metastatic breast cancer; that means the cancer has spend to other organs beyond the origins of the primary cancer. Karol was a woman in her early 60’s, she was easy to talk to and  quick to share stories about who she was and her life. We talked for a while in her hospital room about her travels and her love of books. Her husband had passed into Eternity 8 years ago but Karol had many friends so although childless, she was not alone in life. She was quite happy.

The plan on for Karol on the day we first met was for her likely discharge over the weekend. I would call her in a week or two following her discharge to home. I returned to work on Monday to find that Karol hadn’t gone home, in fact her condition had deteriorated and she needed to be moved to the cardiac step-down unit. I to visit her later that day. Her sister Kathy had just flown in from Florida to spend sometime with her…even thought Karol told her not to come. As Karol dozed in her bed, I could see the look of concern in her sister’s face. I could understand her feelings, Karol looked much sicker than when we talked last week, her skin was clearly jaundiced and she needed oxygen.

As the week progressed it became evident that Karol’s condition was deteriorating, she was dying. She stabilized enough to be moved back to the oncology floor, which in my opinion is a more peaceful unit.

I went to visit Karol later that day. She told me that she awoke early that morning and asked herself, “is this the day that I should let go”? I asked Karol if she believed if we have the power to decide on when we die. Yes she replied, don’t you. I have been with people who hold on in this life until a particular family member arrives, sometimes I see people seemingly wait to let go until their loved ones leave the room…did I believe that we could decide when we die? No I don’t think we have that power, I have witnessed too much needless suffering to believe this to be true.

Her phone rang. I could hear her on the phone with friends, who were obviously full of sorrow and crying while talking with her. During that conversation she spent much of the time comforting those who would be left behind after she departed this life. This I told her is a phenomenon I frequently witness; the dying comforting the living. Karol was completely at ease with her impending death. She told me that she wasn’t afraid to die and was at peace. I shared that I believed that peace was a result of living a life that was free of unforgiveness. Yes, she agreed this was true.

I left her room that afternoon. I didn’t talk with Karol again, the next time I went to see her she was unconscious, moving closer to Eternity. Her sister was at her side, friends came and went. Karol left this life peacefully later that day.

We have much to learn from those who are dying. I am most thankful for the time I spent with Karol. I do hope and pray that someday soon we will be even further along in our fight against cancer…in the meantime I continue to reach out in kindness.

A Winter’s Night

Here is the northeastern part of the states it has been very cold, frigid even. Temperatures have dropped to single digits overnight, “warming” to the teens during the day. I don’t know about you but in weather like this I don’t want to make any more trips out than absolutely necessary. Hubby and I have spent our evenings enjoying the under the warmth of a cozy, fleece lined blanket, sipping herbal tea and reading.

So what is your preferred way to pass the time on long, cold winter nights?

Warm Tea